Water of words

I'm a writer. It's not just the name of a job that I wish I had but it's the type of soul I am. I started this blog for some college courses I was taking online a few years ago and yet, here I am still writing in it. No one reads this and that doesn't bother me at all. I kind of prefer it that way. It's kind of a rambling of what might be happening in my life or snapshot of that's moment's thought.

I write for myself, not for anyone else. My thoughts are my own and are a constant stream that overflows so much with depths so deep that I'm not even aware of them and tributaries that run wild over the lands of realities and further. Sometimes my words are flowery and what I hope are artistic descriptions. Other times they are concise and to a sharp point. Other times I'm writing just to write. Most times I have no idea where my ideas will take me but I know there's an journey I must experience.

So I keep writing. If anyone ever stumbles upon this, that's fine. I hope you like what I write. If you don't, well, there's a millions of other blogs you can partake in but I thank you for the moment that you took to stumble upon my little chip of the writing block.

Tomorrow is a present

Ha! I'm posting this on time for once! Of course I have no specific topic to ruminate about today though, but that's still one out of two, which I'm aware if a failing grade but I'm here and that's counts for something. I hoped that as I keep tying something will work through my brain and through my fingertips.

Today is my husband's birthday, so that's something. I've never been a fan of my birthday but I'm always up for celebrating another's. We both still work today, unfortunately, but I do have off on Friday and with Monday being Memorial Day, we'll both have off on that day too.

I could really use a 4-day weekend. I can't remember the last time I took off just to enjoy a little bit of free time. It may have been back in November. I doubt I'll actually use that time to relax. I've got yard work to do, projects to work on and a million other small things that need to be done. However, I'll make sure to sneak in some gaming time or a few movies.

It's raining, it's pouring, I wish I was snoring

You'll have to forgive me for not having posted anything for over a month now, not that anyone reads this or anything like that. I only hold myself accountable for my actions. As they say, when it rains, it pours and it mostly certainly did drench me a good bit for a good while there.

As par for the course, I got sick, which vexed me greatly. I have gotten a terrible cold and even the flu every year since I have been back to my home state and this year I had thought I had broken that streak. I gotten through the first barrage of my husband, my roommate and then my child so just when the season was about to end, my roommate got sick again and that was when I finally sub-combed to illness. I was useless for over a week and was even forced to take 2 days off of work. Recovery from this flu was slow and I'm still trying to catch up with my housework.

Then of course, my computer died and of course, that was another week lost in idleness. My husband had to help me completely rebuild a new computer mixing up old and new parts. Luckily, the hybrid runs much better and should last a heck of a longer time too. I'm still trying to catch up on my paperwork.

Luckily for me though, I have been able to find time to finish small projects here and there and even on occasion spent time with friends and been able to have fun. I'm working on the balance thing. Work hard and remember to play hard afterwards.

Holding that umbrella

There once was an old woman who lived in a shoe . . .and she dropped it on me. That's about it. Obviously, I was saying that the other shoe has dropped in the most ridiculous way I could think of.

Those moments when things are going well and I'm actually not dreading what might come but actually planning for a happy future and then that most random thing comes out of nowhere and just plows into you happens to me far too often then I care to admit. It's why I'm an umbrella girl--the type of person who carries an umbrella all day when there's a chance it might rain because if I don't bring it, it will pour down hard on me but when I do have it, it's just another cloudy day. I have accepted that about myself. I just wish people would accept that fact about me because when I'm carrying around that umbrella, I'm asked why am I worried about stuff like that and why would I think about the worst thing that is happening. Because it does happen and I'd rather be prepared for it and deal with the smaller amount of fallout than to feel completely blindsided.

I feel that most catastrophic events are preventable if people would simply take the time to plan for them. There are always signs of what may come and people simply need to watch for them and not ignore them. Not acknowledging things does not make it go away. It only surprises you in the most horrific way. I see those signs. I point them out. I prepare for them. I'm called Kassandra and I accept that.

So I deal with things. I have my moments when I wallow in them but I never let that go on for too long. Then I actively work on things. It's what I do and I need to do that now. Before I leave, here's a light-hearted approach to the word of umbrella.  Why? Cause I can.

There's a storm a'brewin'

I have too much going on right now. I can't concentrate. I'm trying. I'm moving forward because I know there's going to be a moment soon where everything will stop for that brief second and everything will be different. I'm sorry.

Cleaning the New Year

I'm fairly sure I may have mentioned it before but if I didn't, I'll mention it now that I likely have obsessive compulsive disorder. I say likely as I've never been officially diagnosed with it. I have officially been diagnosed with bipolar and been told that the two conditions often run together. With certain symptoms that inevitably pop up no matter how I try to suppress them, it's highly likely that I do indeed have it. Anyway, the point of the matter with this that I feel chaotic.

I bought a house, which is great but we're in the process of unpacking, which means boxes and stuff and junk all over the place. It's kind of driving me crazy. My house in a mess and trying to find anything is next to impossible. I'm working on it when I can and as often as I can but it's overwhelming at best. I just have to keep cleaning though. It'll get done sooner or later and it'll be worth it.

2016!

It's a new year and big changes are happening soon. I'm very excited. I get the feeling that this year will continue to be a year of big changes. Some will be wonderful but others not so much. The only thing I will do is keep doing what I always do, which is just rolling with the punches and putting myself in a position to give a good kick back. I'll do my best to be prepared and do my best to enjoy the good in the situation.