Band Girl

So it's no secret that my favorite band is the Goo Goo Dolls. I have every one of their albums that I can get my hands. I am part of their official fan club. I have a few t-shirts. I have signed memorabilia. I have been to several of their concerts and have even met them. In short, I'm fairly obsessed with them. 

Their music saved my life. It helped buoy my spirits from sinking so low that I could rise up again. Their lyrics remind me that I'm not alone in my feelings. Theirs songs can make me feel comforted or want to get up and dance. 

The first time I heard their song, "Name," I thought it was a great song but I was in my reject anything remotely popular. Their sound stayed in the back of my mind though. I felt much the same way when I heard "Iris." I more than took note and thought it was an amazing song but for whatever reason I stuck to my guns to not get stuck on popular music. Then I heard "Slide." I cried as I listened to that song for the first time ever. It very simply told me everything I had ever wanted to hear from anyone. I was going through a tough period in my life, so say the least. I had severe insomnia with panic attacks happening a couple of times a day. I bought that album, Dizzy Up the Girl, as soon as I could and it was likely the only thing that kept me sane. Between the Star Wars soundtrack and The Phantom of the Opera soundtrack, I was able to lay down with headphones over my ears to drown out the haunting voices in my head so that I may not have been able to sleep but I was able to rest just a little bit at a time. This band basically saved my life. 

I went to one of their concerts last weekend. I drove 2 hours to sit in the scorching, humid heat just to listen to them play live. I love their intermittent stories and they sounded amazing. I have never been to a bad show of theirs. 

They will always be my favorite band in the world. 

Fuel for the Soul

Like for many, music is a balm for my soul. I can go from rock to classic to hip hop and back to musicals and heavy metal with techno, going from one right to the next in the most random order that leaves a lot of people with their heads spinning.

Mainly, I'm a rock/heavy metal chick.  I adore bands such as Aerosmith, Gun'N Roses, Lifehouse, Lacuna Coil, Breaking Benjamin, Fuel, Metallica. My favorite band in the world will always be Goo Goo Dolls. Their music has saved my life and I will forever be grateful that I can find comfort in their music.

For this soul, I just want to share what has touched my soul recently.

I need to see this. I adore the entire soundtrack. Enjoy. I know I do.

Sing, sing this holiday song

I admit it--I love Christmas songs.  I'm not a religious person at all and it's better for all that I don't step into such a building on a regular day but I adore the holidays singing programs and have been known to sneak into the back of a random church to listen in and hear the songs.  I adore the reverence in respect of the holiday season, whether the song is religious or secular or just plain fun.  It puts me in that awe and joy of that time of the year to give and get and spend time with the loved ones with trimmings of tradition and mixing of the new.  

So I give you this song to enjoy . . .

serenity of mind

I once tried to count the stream of thoughts that constantly run through my head.  I actually got up to about 16 and decided to stop as it seems like my brain continues to work on levels that even I'm not completely aware of.  I have scenes of movies or tv shows that constantly play through random scenes, bits of music from different genres that like to make themselves known along with random melodies that  my mind is making it up come out of nowhere.  There are of course random passages from books and stories that like to stream right with the different flashes of stories that I'm personally working on.  I don't even have a number of how many observations I've apparently made of people and their actions and never realized I had paid attention to at all.  That's just the background thoughts.  There's the constant planning of budgeting, to dos, preparations and contingencies.  I've been known to multitask 7 things at a time and not drop the ball of quality at all.

No wonder I'm a pretty severe insomniac.  I can't shut off my brain.  Switch off one thought for it to just be replaced with another and it's a never ending process.  Like any other beast, music seems to tame my mind.  It doesn't turn it off but the right music can speed it up and even slow it down.

Just to share, here's one of my current favs:

this is the song that never ends . . .

It goes on and on, my friend . . .No, I'll stop there.  There's no use in torturing you with that song.

I'm suffering enough.  I do indeed have a song stuck in my head.  I usually do have a song, a movie, random unwritten scenes and such running my head on top of my usual thought processes but this singular song seems to have the ability to almost drown everything else in my head.

So that I don't suffer alone, here ya go . . .