I'm a geeky girl!

So the last several posts I have done have all been about how I have so little to do and so much time . . .strike that, reverse that, thank you for your time. I've also gone at least 2 weeks before remembering to post something. Lucky for me, that it's only 2 days late and even better that I have something, what I hope to be, more interesting, or at the very least to be more amusing, to converse about.

I'm not your typical female. I don't just fall for a pretty face. I'll admire the artwork but I'll withhold judgement on whether more is warranted or not. Traits that are much more important to me, and in no particular order, are kindness, empathy, intelligence, curiosity, a good sense of humor, loyalty. I'm more likely to find the person sitting in the corner alone and try to engage them into conversation than to immediately sit in the center of a room to demand attention of the person who already has so much of it. With that being stated, it shouldn't come to a surprise that I don't develop crushes on the typical celebrities that most people admire after. My first celebrity crush was Brendan Frazer and for the longest time I have held a candle in my heart for Johnny Rzeznik. I will always hold a tender for them.

My current main crush is Thorin Oakenshield, specifically Richard Armitage as Thorin but my crush is not necessarily on Richard Armitage but his portrayal of Thorin. The character of Thorin Oakenshield is strength. He is a leader, specifically king, to his people and puts their well-being above his own desires, which in turn means he has honor and loyalty. He's not perfect and that actually makes me fall for his character more. He has pride but will admit when he is wrong. He broods but that means he feels things deeper than he lets on. He is stubborn but will do what is necessary.

On a physical level, he is a man. Thorin Oakenshield is a warrior, a blacksmith. He is fur and leather with strong arms, hands and body. This is how Thorin looks in my head. Pardon me, while I swoon for a second. 

What seals the deal for me, is that with Richard Armitage as Thorin, that voice sends shivers down my spine in the best of ways and when his eyes look at you, you feel like you would melt in the best of ways. 

I think I may go watch the Hobbit now!  lol

Geek On!

So I'm a geek. I feel I've been very clear on that point and I don't have just one geekdom, but in fact, I have several. I read, I adore certain tv series and I play video games so there's quite a lot that I can spout about. Recently, I went to the Great Philly Comic Con and it was glorious! I was an adoring fan as I took in all the merchandise around me and a gawking idiot to the celebrities that came to share their work there. I got my picture with Jewel Staite and Alan Tudyk. I got my picture with David Ankrum. I have no words on how much this mean to me. That is all. I can't wait til next year!

http://www.philadelphiacomiccon.com/

A Vow is a Choice

I admit outright that I am a possessive being. I do believe that it's just simply in the nature of being people, no matter how altruistic a person is. I believe that's what makes choice such a big deal for me. I demand my right to choose. I pick who is around me, I choose how my money is spent, I make the choice of what I do with my time, I go where I want to do and I won't allow anyone else to make those decisions for me, unless I give my permission for someone else to do so. 

It's for these same reasons why I believe that once you make a strong decision, you shouldn't be so easily swayed. That's not to say a person isn't allowed to change their mind but that a change should come with a good reason. You made that decision for a reason after all. It's also for these reasons that you live with the consequences of these choices. Assuming that you've been given the information of your choice, you're aware of what happens with it. 

I never really thought of myself as a traditional person but I think it's for these ways of thinking that I feel wedding vows are a bit sacred. It's that choice to promise to be with that person and only that person for the rest of your lives, made in front of people and whatever gods you believe in. It's not something to be done on a whim. These days, it's a whole production with a whole year or more to plan and make into a spectacle so it's not as if there isn't a whole lot of time to make sure of what's happening. The sad fact though is that there is divorce and cheating and a whole matter of marriage statistics, which honestly baffles me but that's another topic for another time. 

I have a husband, who I love, and I take my wedding vows seriously. I made a promise to be with him and no one else but him and he made that same promise to me, which I expect him to take seriously. I made that very clear from the start. If he ever comes to the realization that he no longer wants to be with him, then he need only to tell me that. Of course, I would be hurt and though I might be angry at the situation, I wouldn't be angry at him as long as he was honest with me. If he wanted to be with another person, then he simply needs to tell me. He needs to end things with me before he starts something with the other person and if he started something with the other person before he ended things with me, that would make me angry, that would make me vindictive. I would really prefer to not make a difficult situation even worse with insane amounts drama, if I really had to go through such events. 

Spring forward

Today was the vernal equinox. In laymen's terms, it's the day where the length of day is equal to the length of night, which is also the astronomical marking of the first day of spring.

There's lots of meaning to this day for a bunch of different days as it usually coincides with different religious affiliations and such. For me, I've never had much of a definition for this day and I'm not really sure why that is. I've always been obsessed with astronomy and astrology and anything having to do with the stars and such so there is that aspect that draws my attention to this day but that's it. This is a day of rebirth in a lot of wiccan/pagan rituals, which I've always felt a connection to, and it's a big celebration in Hindu cultures and of course, it's basically Easter in Christianity, but none of those have a deep connection to me. It's odd because I do feel something for the autumnal equinox but perhaps that's only because my birthday is not far off from that day. I'm not sure why that is but I may have to start thinking about it.

In the mean time . . .

Forward, march!

Sadly enough, I'm terribly late with this post. This isn't the best trend to be continuing for this year and I'm trying my best to turn things around, which is now my goal for this year.

The quote goes, "To the world, you might be one person but to one person you might be the world." Now, I'm not meaning to take this literally in that I mean to make myself so super important to a single person. I'm meaning to focus on my own interactions on a day to day basis, trying to make the most positive outcomes for myself and those around me. I want to better myself and others around me through more direct acts. I will continue to do what is right instead of what is easy.

First off, I'm going to work on myself. I can't help others if I can't take care of myself. I've started counting my calories again. I need to eat healthier and counting calories helps me with that. It forces me to drink more water and snack on junk food less but not totally deprive myself of the foods I enjoy. I've already lost about 5 lbs. Next, I need to exercise more. Luckily, I have a fairly active job and that gives me strength training on day to day basis. I need to add a daily stretch routine, which I'm hoping to start soon, maybe even today. I also want to add a little more cardio to my daily routine such as a walk or something. I will work up to it, going one step at a time. I want these habits to last.

I will continue on my ever lasting list of things to do around the house and try not to let things fall to the way side due to sheer laziness. I can't work in a messy environment and I have to remember that maintenance is a lot easier in the general run of things. I've been doing a good job of picking up the general work schedule again this past week and now I just have to keep it up.

Most important on my self, I need to remember to give myself time to relax, time to have fun and time to rest. It's my worst point. I'm always last on my own list. I have to remember that it's important to recharge my own batteries so that I have the energy and right frame of mind to keep going forward.

Second of all, I'm going to work on personal relationships. I need to be less judgmental and less likely to jump to conclusions. No matter how right I feel that I am, I need to approach situations with a cool head. I have to remember that ignorance can only be beaten by teaching a person to think for themselves and that arguing usually only causes a person to dig their own heels further into the issue. Each person has their own unique situation and I need to remember that I need to share in their experiences sometimes.

I was recently in a situation in which a person said something that came across as ignorant and completely hypocritical. I tried to confront this person in a less public fashion but this person instead decided to avoid confrontation without any explanation. The situation was a reminder that not everyone is as ready to deal with issues as I am and I have to remember that I have no control over that and to move on.

I am my world and there are others in their worlds. My goal is to let those worlds meet and be better off for it.

2017 so far . . .

I'm not happy with current events. Every time I even glance at something on the internet, it's just terrible news. When I believe that the ignorance and bigotry people are daring to show can't reach a new level, they like to prove me wrong. It's more than a month into this year and the trend hasn't slowed down yet. I'm honestly terrified for the future of our nation.

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to get this little bit out. I'll hopefully have something less doom and gloom to share about.

Carrie On

December was disheartening for me this year and January is no longer a good month for me. I'm doing my best to rally my spirit for the beginning of this 2017 but so far my efforts aren't doing too well. Hopefully, I'll be on the mend soon enough with a little more time. 

To start with things, I've been dealing with this for a while now and to be honest, it still makes me sad. Carrie Fisher was called back to another galaxy on Dec. 27, 2016. For me, on that day, that was the day that music died. 

She represented so many things to me. Of course, she was Princess Leia. She wasn't just a girl waiting around to be rescued. She was intelligent, ambitious, stubborn and fought for what she felt was right. She was one of the youngest members of the Imperial Senate and one of the leaders of the Rebel Alliance, fighting to free the galaxy from the evil empire. She was captured but refused to give in and even when she lost everything, she didn't lose hope. She kept on going and kept fighting. She showed me that girls are tough, that we can do the rescuing ourselves and that we girls rule the galaxy. In real life, Carrie Fisher was a writer. She was on Broadway. She was a mental health advocate. She embodied so much of how I grew up and now she's gone but she won't ever be forgotten. 

Rest in Peace, Carrie Fisher. You will be missed.