Whose laughing?

I adore improv. The wit, the banter and the spontaneity of it all just absolutely cracks me up. 

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By the time . . .

It's that time of the year again, when things are starting to get amped up. For my family especially, after Halloween it's a wedding anniversary, Veterans Days with 2 birthdays very close and soon after there's Thanksgiving. This year, we decided to add more to our plate as we're trying to purchase our first home this year. We're crazy like that.

I swear that as the years go on, things get crazier and crazier and time gets more and more compressed. As a kid though, time seemed to drag on and Christmas was so far and far away. That's all I got for now. That's all I got time for at the moment, cause time is relevant in so many amazing ways.

Umbrella girl

I feel hopeful. It's almost odd to say that as I'm always a 'prepare for the worst and hope for the best' type of person. I plan ahead. If I don't have a plan A to Z, that's when it all goes to hell. That's not to say that I'm pessimist. I prefer to think of myself as a realist and if the worst doesn't happen, I'm the first to be happy that it's all good. When it might rain, I got my umbrella ready but when I see a break I may start to dance in the rain. I do my best to keep a happy spirit. Right now, I'm looking forward. I still have my backup plans but I feel like we're at the horizon. We're either going to keep walking into the sun or fall off the edge of the world. Either way, I'm ready to move forward.

Hate is such a strong word

To be straightforward, this is not to someone or even about someone. Certain events have brought up new understandings of my own thought process that I'm still trying to process, of which I'd like to share some these ponderings (I know that's a made up word but I liked the sound of it and am therefore using it.)

The idea of hatred on a personal level is what I'm concerned about. I don't hate. I strongly dislike things, and I've often used the word hate as a hyperbole, but I don't honestly hate things and, most especially, not people. The closest to hating something is my fear of snakes, and I don't necessarily hate the creatures themselves but more so, that I hate my reaction to them. I dislike people. I may not respect their choices but its their choice, and as their choices do not harm others around them, I have no problem with them. I get angry over people's decisions that do hurt themselves, others and myself but I can't hate the person who made that choice. Hating a person for a decision that they follow through is too much like taking way a person's free will and I do believe in free will above many things. After being angry, then I try to forgive and whether I'm able to give my forgiveness or not, I move on.

I don't dwell. The person made their decision and I've made decision and there's nothing that can be done about it as the past can't be changed. If I make the choice to no longer have anything to do with a person, I have made my choice. It's not a decision made of out of hate but as a desire to move on because at that point, so much has happened that I'm done with the situation and I don't care. It's not a choice made out of whim but with careful thought. It is my decision and unless there is something that brings new clarity to the situation, I likely won't change my mind.

I suppose in a way, inattention and disinterest can seem like hatred to someone who thrives on attention, sympathy and such things. The fact of the matter though is that I don't hate. I just don't care. I have no more interest in what has happened and I have moved my feelings and thoughts onto more interesting things. I have better things to do than to worry about what another person thinks of me.

Fuel for the Soul

Like for many, music is a balm for my soul. I can go from rock to classic to hip hop and back to musicals and heavy metal with techno, going from one right to the next in the most random order that leaves a lot of people with their heads spinning.

Mainly, I'm a rock/heavy metal chick.  I adore bands such as Aerosmith, Gun'N Roses, Lifehouse, Lacuna Coil, Breaking Benjamin, Fuel, Metallica. My favorite band in the world will always be Goo Goo Dolls. Their music has saved my life and I will forever be grateful that I can find comfort in their music.

For this soul, I just want to share what has touched my soul recently.

I need to see this. I adore the entire soundtrack. Enjoy. I know I do.

No Less

Oh, I was bad. It took me the entire two weeks that I normally leave in between posts to finally write something up yesterday for me to have to post today too. I got nothing in case you can't tell. In my defense, it's autumn, which is always the ramping into the busiest time of the year for me.

Let's face it: fall is the busiest time of the year for me. I got projects coming out of my ears right now and I'm working hard to pare them down but of course, it's a slow process. In my defense, the list was actually low for a bit so I thought I might finally do a few things for my self but then events happen and I just added a whole bunch of extra work for myself to do instead. I rarely win in these situations but I keep trying anyway. It's either enough to do or too much; there is no less.

I'll try to have something better next time.

Falling into Season

If I have never mentioned it, I adore autumn. I love watching the trees go into yellow, gold, red, bronze and then falling to the ground in a blanket. I anticipate the smell of cinnamon and pumpkin and everything spice and nice. I enjoy few things more than to take a walk in a crisp cool morning. I can't wait to get the fall clothes out so that I can cuddle into a nice comfy sweater and curl up under a cozy blanket while reading or watching tv.

That is all, because of course, I have a million things to do right now.