June 21st

Self diagnosis

Whoever says youtube has no uses . . .it's a great way to explain things.

OCPD:

Bipolar:

Write it down!

Just a few days late with this one so that's progress. I figure I'm ahead of the curve anyway as I've kept this up for a handful of years already. I have an actual journal though it's been even longer since I've used it to pour my emotions into. I've started a few entries over the past five years or so but I've yet to finish one. A blog is just much faster but I'm a romantic as I adore pen to paper.

My love for putting ink onto paper shows at my desk. I'm surrounded by paper. I have binders of information ready at a fingertip's notice.  There's a binder for fun ideas and trips, a binder full of medical information ready to reference in the middle of phone calls to doctors' offices, a binder to keep general household information such bills and such and even a binder full of receipts and coupons to keep track of monthly spending. They all help keep my life organized. I have a small binder filled with more important information and a weekly planner for the more everyday lists of things to do.

I do believe I need to start a list of books I have read and books that I would like to read. I most definitely think I need to start a binder or journal of some sort to fill with all the ideas of projects that I would like to do. I have things everywhere and lists scattered all over the place so I think it's about time I put them all together so that I might be able to see right away what I want to do and actually do it. Or maybe I have enough binders.

May is now gone!

I'm terribly late with this post. I believe in the time that I should have put up this 1 post 2 posts should have been put up.

May is my second busiest month of the year. My husband's birthday is in May. Our roommate has his birthday in this month also. Then there's Memorial Day with its long weekend and I just noticed that in my husband's birthday month there is a military affiliation day, which also happens in my own birthday month. Of course, there's also the fact that it's the last full month of school before it's summer break so school tries to jam pack all their activities in a short time period.

This year, my husband decided to throw a BBQ birthday bash for himself. He decided to make a theme party of Fallout. We had a Nuka Cola Quantum, which was just blue Hawaiian Punch. My husband even arranged a scavenger hunt with bottle caps and a prize of a Fallout Pop figure and a book on surviving a nuclear fallout.  We even had the puppy go along with the theme! It was fun and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves.

Now, it's time to gear up for summer and I am ready for some warm weather!

I'm a geeky girl!

So the last several posts I have done have all been about how I have so little to do and so much time . . .strike that, reverse that, thank you for your time. I've also gone at least 2 weeks before remembering to post something. Lucky for me, that it's only 2 days late and even better that I have something, what I hope to be, more interesting, or at the very least to be more amusing, to converse about.

I'm not your typical female. I don't just fall for a pretty face. I'll admire the artwork but I'll withhold judgement on whether more is warranted or not. Traits that are much more important to me, and in no particular order, are kindness, empathy, intelligence, curiosity, a good sense of humor, loyalty. I'm more likely to find the person sitting in the corner alone and try to engage them into conversation than to immediately sit in the center of a room to demand attention of the person who already has so much of it. With that being stated, it shouldn't come to a surprise that I don't develop crushes on the typical celebrities that most people admire after. My first celebrity crush was Brendan Frazer and for the longest time I have held a candle in my heart for Johnny Rzeznik. I will always hold a tender for them.

My current main crush is Thorin Oakenshield, specifically Richard Armitage as Thorin but my crush is not necessarily on Richard Armitage but his portrayal of Thorin. The character of Thorin Oakenshield is strength. He is a leader, specifically king, to his people and puts their well-being above his own desires, which in turn means he has honor and loyalty. He's not perfect and that actually makes me fall for his character more. He has pride but will admit when he is wrong. He broods but that means he feels things deeper than he lets on. He is stubborn but will do what is necessary.

On a physical level, he is a man. Thorin Oakenshield is a warrior, a blacksmith. He is fur and leather with strong arms, hands and body. This is how Thorin looks in my head. Pardon me, while I swoon for a second. 

What seals the deal for me, is that with Richard Armitage as Thorin, that voice sends shivers down my spine in the best of ways and when his eyes look at you, you feel like you would melt in the best of ways. 

I think I may go watch the Hobbit now!  lol

Geek On!

So I'm a geek. I feel I've been very clear on that point and I don't have just one geekdom, but in fact, I have several. I read, I adore certain tv series and I play video games so there's quite a lot that I can spout about. Recently, I went to the Great Philly Comic Con and it was glorious! I was an adoring fan as I took in all the merchandise around me and a gawking idiot to the celebrities that came to share their work there. I got my picture with Jewel Staite and Alan Tudyk. I got my picture with David Ankrum. I have no words on how much this mean to me. That is all. I can't wait til next year!

http://www.philadelphiacomiccon.com/

A Vow is a Choice

I admit outright that I am a possessive being. I do believe that it's just simply in the nature of being people, no matter how altruistic a person is. I believe that's what makes choice such a big deal for me. I demand my right to choose. I pick who is around me, I choose how my money is spent, I make the choice of what I do with my time, I go where I want to do and I won't allow anyone else to make those decisions for me, unless I give my permission for someone else to do so. 

It's for these same reasons why I believe that once you make a strong decision, you shouldn't be so easily swayed. That's not to say a person isn't allowed to change their mind but that a change should come with a good reason. You made that decision for a reason after all. It's also for these reasons that you live with the consequences of these choices. Assuming that you've been given the information of your choice, you're aware of what happens with it. 

I never really thought of myself as a traditional person but I think it's for these ways of thinking that I feel wedding vows are a bit sacred. It's that choice to promise to be with that person and only that person for the rest of your lives, made in front of people and whatever gods you believe in. It's not something to be done on a whim. These days, it's a whole production with a whole year or more to plan and make into a spectacle so it's not as if there isn't a whole lot of time to make sure of what's happening. The sad fact though is that there is divorce and cheating and a whole matter of marriage statistics, which honestly baffles me but that's another topic for another time. 

I have a husband, who I love, and I take my wedding vows seriously. I made a promise to be with him and no one else but him and he made that same promise to me, which I expect him to take seriously. I made that very clear from the start. If he ever comes to the realization that he no longer wants to be with him, then he need only to tell me that. Of course, I would be hurt and though I might be angry at the situation, I wouldn't be angry at him as long as he was honest with me. If he wanted to be with another person, then he simply needs to tell me. He needs to end things with me before he starts something with the other person and if he started something with the other person before he ended things with me, that would make me angry, that would make me vindictive. I would really prefer to not make a difficult situation even worse with insane amounts drama, if I really had to go through such events.